Saturday, January 3, 2015

"3x5" by John Mayer

I'm not sure exactly when or how, but ever since I can remember I have processed life through a lens and a notebook. Zoey described what she was doing the other day like this: "I'm taking a picture and then writing down the journey." I was slightly taken aback by this philosophy from my five-year-old, but soon realized that I do the same thing.

I love to take pictures to remember all the little moments in life and then write down the journey. I've done it for as long as I can remember. And for the most part, I enjoy it. However, sometimes, I get lost behind the lens and forget to be in the moment. I forget to actually experience what is happening to me. As a result, I find that sometimes I look back on moments in my life and feel like they happened to someone else.

I try to live more in the moment and put cataloging the time on the back burner until the event is actually over. That does make me delayed in writing things down sometimes, but I find that I remember more because I experience it more passionately in the moment.

When I need help remembering to live in the moment, I go to music. John Mayer's "3x5" was one of the first songs I began going to during these times. I've been struggling with this concept again lately, so I wanted to share my inspiration to be present, every moment of everyday.



"3x5"
by John Mayer

I'm writing you to
catch you up on places I've been
You held this letter
probably got excited, but there's nothing else inside it
didn't have a camera by my side this time
hopping I would see the world with both my eyes
maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way with words
Today skies are painted colors of a cowboy's cliche'
And strange how clouds that look like mountains in the sky
are next to mountains anyway
Didn't have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm
in the mood to lose my way
but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life
You'll be with me next time I go outside
just no more 3x5's Guess you had to be there
Guess you had to be with me Today I finally overcame
tryin' to fit the world inside a picture frame
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to
lose my way but let me say
You should have seen that sunrise with your own eyes
it brought me back to life
You'll be with me next time I go outside
no more 3x5's
just no more 3x5's


Friday, January 2, 2015

2014...My Year In Books

I love Goodreads. It is a Website dedicated to books and it is the only I can keep track of all the books I read. Now, I realize how much of nerd I am, but even I was surprsied when Goodreads presented my year in books (a list of all the books you read in one year). I have read 86 books this year. I'm wondering if it is possible to read too much? No, the answer to that question is no you can never read too much.

I love reading, it is a passion. Like writing, reading is not simply something that I do, it is who I am. Getting lost in the words of a story is as natural as breathing and I couldn't imagine life without it.

I share with you now a link to my list: [CLICK HERE]

I don't want to bore you with all 86 books I read this year, but I was thinking it would be fun to make a list of the Top 10. It is difficult for me to choose only 10, but I want to give a worthwhile list of what I consider the best (and I'll lump series together so that helps.)

10. Safe Haven by Nicolas Sparks




This was a delightful story about the courage it takes to break free from abuse and the ability to love again. I love so many of Sparks stories, but this was one that just made my heart melt.







9. Paper Towns by John Green

Green has really come onto the literary scene as a power house writer. I love that his stories whisper to us that ordinary life is extraordinary. Paper Towns is a beautiful coming of age story, where it is okay to take the time for find out who your really are. Often that knowledge is discovered in ways that you would never dream. This is one of two of Green's novels that made it onto my Top 10 for this year.








8. Chasing Fire by Nora Roberts

Roberts is another author that I just can't get enough of. I've read more books by her than anyone else I believe. She has a way of bringing that special moment in relationships into focus and making us all believe in true love over and over again. Chasing Fire is a story of great passion. I think that is what I loved about it so much. Everything these character encounter is met with this overwhelming force that only those who risk their lives on a daily basis can understand. It is a beautiful love story that showcases the true passion that life can hold.





7. The Neverending Story by Michael Ende

I actually can't believe it took me so long to read this novel since it is quite the classic. However, I picked it up on our vacation in New England and I couldn't put it down. It is a timeless story of the power to create your own ending. It is full of magic, companionship and the choice to become who you want to be.









6. Chosen by Ginger Garrett

This is one story that took me completely by surprise. Chosen is the tale of Esther (from the Bible) and how she became the King's wife. This has always been one of my favorite stories from the Bible because it is about the courage and boldness of a woman who would save her people, the Jews. Garrett really brings this story to life in a passionate way. It really brings out the prestige of becoming a wife and what that really means to the woman the King chose. It also showcases the conflict and animosity housed by those under the King's command. Since Garrett is not afraid to bring honest history into this story, you can really see how courageous Esther really was and what she went through to become the hero we know her as. She did something only a brave woman could have done, something that she was put in a place such as this just for one moment where she had the opportunity to make a true difference. This was such a great telling of Esther, it made me fall in love with the story all over again.

5. A Great and Terrible Beauty by Libba Bray

This book was a recommendation from a friend and it was a great one. This is another coming of age story of a girl who learns that she is the key to another world. I love this story because of the encouragement to be exactly who you are, who ever that may be, and the power of friendship.









4. Protector of the Small Quartet (First Test, Page, Squire and Lady Knight) by Tamora Pierce

This is another series recommended to me by a friend. I loved this series so much. It is definitely a Young Adult novel that is geared for an average of age 10, but I still got so much out of this story It is about a girl who desires to be a knight, something unheard of in that day and time. However, she is dedicated and strong and overcomes all odds to become who she wants to be. I love how much Pierce covers in this story. She speaks of overcoming diversity, protecting those smaller than you, bullying, friendship and confidence. I love this tale and I can't wait to share it with my daughter.




3. The Fault in Our Stars by John Green

This is a very popular book now and was made into a movie this past summer. Honestly, it is worth the hype. I was hesitant to read this novel because I try to steer clear of sad stories that I know will make me cry. However, I was glad I read this one...and yes, I did cry. Green creates characters that we can relate to, interactions that I would have with my friends. He makes an unimaginable situation seem real and raw and honest. I fell in love with these characters, who found strength in each other when they were at their weakest. There are just so many quotes and memorable scenes from this one that it is hard to forget.





2. Ender's Game by Orson Scott Card

I tend to read a lot of romance novels and teen fiction, but this was a story that I am glad I encountered. After finishing this novel, I have told my husband, brother-in-law and anyone else who will listen that they have to read this story. It is about a young boy who goes to an academy to become the next commander of the army's fleet; however, his story is so powerful I can't even describe it accurately. You just have to read it, but you will be glad you did.







1. The Book Thief by Markus Zusak

Now this is a novel that I will not soon forget. It is the story of a German family in the early years of WWII. I imagine Zoey will be reading this in English class in High School, at least I hope so. There are so many wonderful elements in this story. The best part, it is narrated by death. I mean, there isn't a better perspective in my opinion, especially in the years of war. There are many literary devices at work in this novel, but more importantly it is a tale that is impossible to forget. This is one that stays with you long after you close the cover. Even now I get chills as I remember some scenes. (This is saying a lot because the reason I tend to re-read many books because I have a hard time remembering the details after time has passed.) This is one novel that I believe everyone should read one day.




Those are my Top 10. There are happy ones and sad ones, but all of them are memorable to me for one reason or another.

I also love to re-read books. I've re-read several this year that I did not include in the Top 10 list. However, if it is good enough to read twice (or more), I believe it is worth mentioning.


  1. The Hunger Games Trilogy (The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, Mockingjay) by Suzanne Collins
  2. Divergent by Veronica Roth
  3. A Light in the Attic and Falling Up by Shel Silverstein (I read these two with Zoey and it was a great way to end our days together.)
  4. The Three Island Sisters Trilogy (Dance Upon the Air, Heaven & Earth, and Face the Fire) by Nora Roberts
  5. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy by Douglas Adams
  6. The Girl Who Chased the Moon by Sarah Addison Allen
  7. The Host by Stephanie Meyer
  8. The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
  9. The Mortal Instruments Trilogy (Clockwork Angel, Clockwork Prince, Clockwork Princess) by Cassandra Clare
  10. The Giver by Lois Lowry
That is my year in books. Honestly, one of the things I am looking forward to in 2015 is creating a new list of books read in one year. I want to at least read 50, but we'll see how that goes. 

What books have you read lately that stood out to you? Also, if you are on Goodreads, look me up, I'd love to experience the magic of books with you!

Happy Reading in 2015!

Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 Reading Challenge

I love to read and reading challenges. I found a really cool one to work on this year. My goal is to read (at least) 50 books this year so this will be a fun way to do it.

POPSUGAR put out an ultimate reading list this year with a wide range of books that span eras and genres instead of assigning specific books. I am looking forward to trying something new. And like always, I will keep track of my reading list in Goodreads if you want to try and keep up.

They have an awesome graphic that you can get HERE.



I'm looking forward to working on this list. I would love for you to join me in this challenge! Let me know in the comments if you do!

Connect with me on Goodreads and Facebook!

Happy Reading!

2015: A Brand New Day

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Today marks the beginning of something new. It is the beginning of a brand new year where anything can happen. You have a chance to write a new story and create new opportunities for yourself. What does this day mean for you?

When I woke up this morning, on the dawn of a new year, I realized something important...everyday is a brand new day. We put so much power in the start of a new year that we fail to realize that everyday can be the start of something new: new chances and new opportunities. Making change happen in your life is really just about deciding it is time to make different, better choices. That can happen on any day. Odds are that beginning won't be on the first day of a new year, even greater odds indicated that you won't even remember when the change truly began. It is not one life changing moment that defines us, it is the culmination of many choices strung together after days, months and years that make us who we are.

This is a concept that is both comforting and scary. Yes, it is true that it takes time to change those things that you dislike about yourself. For me some of those has been weight, anger and apathy. You do not change overnight, it takes time and trust and if you are really lucky, some great people to encourage you along the way. On the other hand, if you fall back into old habits, if you make a poor choice, it is not the end of your positive transformation. We all make mistakes, but if you are trying to be better, to do better, then you will see results. The choice that leads you to your goal will come more effortless next time and what made you stumble will be easier to conquer. Only an entire life can make the measure of a person, not this moment or the next. But this choice does matter because it is leading you to the person you will become, it is deciding the person that you are. Who do you want to be?

I've thought about my new year's resolutions for this year and I've come up with one word. Two years ago I wanted to simplify and last year I wanted to be healthy. I've accomplished those things. I've placed those words as the focus of all the decisions I have made over the last two years and I have seen amazing results. I don't want to make a laundry list of things I want to do, that is something that has never worked for me. But this has: I choose a word, something that I want more in my life. I want a direction that my choices in the next year and longer will lead me.

This year I choose "confident" as my word. I have simplified my life greatly (granted moving across the country into a city helped that, but nonetheless, that was a choice that would have been a lot harder to make without it already being in my heart.) I have also become more healthy in so many ways. I lost 40 pounds over the course of last year. I only have about 15 more pounds until I reach my target weight. I am so proud of myself and the choices I have made to be healthy for myself and my family. This year I will continue to simplify and be healthy, but I want to add confidence to that list.

I want to make choices that allow myself to believe in me. It is not something that comes naturally to me, I am full of self-doubt. However, I want to be confident in who I am. I have begun this journey in the end of this past year, especially since moving to Seattle. I will not apologize for who I am, how I think or what I believe anymore. I am random and weird and contradicting, but I am me and I'm the only one like me and that is okay. That is more than okay...that is all there is. We only live one life and I want to live mine to the fullest, filled to the brim with love, creativity, and passion.

I woke up this morning snuggled between my husband and my daughter...I thought my heart was going to explode with happiness. Today is just another day, a Thursday that happens to begin 2015. A lot has happened to my family and I during this past year. I want to write it all out, but it is taking some time. For now, I want to live this day and then the next and know that I am creating a wonderful life, one that I am excited to live and share with everyone.

Today is a brand new day...so is tomorrow. Live them, love them and laugh always!

Happy New Year!

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

"The Giver" by Lois Lowry

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I choose to end this year by reading The Giver by Lois Lowry once again. I think this is about the third time I've read this book and every time I fall in love with it all over again.

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"The Giver" is set in an alternate world where everything is strictly controlled, from the day's routine to the job and spouse you will one day obtain. Everything is perfect and everyone has their place. However, something is missing. Jonas never knew what that was until he was assigned a special occupation as The Receiver at the age of twelve. His training is from The Giver, an older man who alone holds the memories of everything that came before the only community Jonas has ever known. These memories become Jonas's burden to bear as he experiences true pleasure and pain for the first time. Now that he knows the truth there is no turning back, only a question...Can there be change?

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Quotes:

Jonas frowned. "I wish we had those things, still. Just now and then."
The old man smiled. "So do I," he said. "But that choice is not ours."
"But sir," Jonas suggested, "since you have so much power --"
The man corrected him. "Honor," he said firmly. "I have great honor. So will you. But you will find that that is not the same as power."

Jonas wasn't interested, just then, in wisdom. It was the colors that fascinated him. "Why can't everyone see them? Why did colors disappear?"
The Giver shrugged. "Our people made that choice, the choice to go to Sameness. Before my time, before the previous time, back and back and back. We relinquished color when we relinquished sunshine and did away with differences." He thought for a moment. "We gained control of many things. But we had to let go of others." .
"We shouldn't have!" Jonas said fiercely.
The Giver looked started at the certainty of Jonas's reaction. Then he smiled wryly. "You've come very quickly to that conclusion," he said. "It took me many years. Maybe your wisdom will come much more quickly than mine."

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The Giver told him that it would be a very long time before he had the colors to keep.
"But I want them!" Jonas said angrily. "It isn't fair that nothing has color!"
"Not fair?" The Giver looked at Jonas curiously. "Explain what you mean."
"Well..." Jonas had to stop and think it through. "If everything's the same, then there aren't any choices! I want to wake up in the morning and decide things! A blue tunic, or a red one?"
He looked down at himself, at the colorless fabric of his clothing, "But it's all the same, always."
Then he laughed a little. "I know it's not important what you wear. I doesn't matter. But --"
"It's the choosing that's important, isn't it?" The Giver asked him.

"We don't dare to let people make choices of their own."
"Not safe?" The Giver suggested.
"Definitely not safe, " Jonas said with certainty. "What if they were allowed to choose their own mate? And chose wrong?"
"Or what if," he went on, almost laughing at the absurdity, "they chose their own jobs?"
"Frightening, isn't it?" The Giver said.
Jonas chuckled. "Very frightening. I can't even imagine it. We really have to protect people from wrong choices."
"It's safer."
"Yes," Jonas agreed. "Much safer."
But when the conversation turned to other things, Jonas was left, still, with a feeling of frustration that he didn't understand.

Jonas thought about it, about what it would be like for him. "Along with walking and eating and --" He looked around the walls of books. "Reading? That's it?"
The Giver shook his head. "Those are simply the things that I do. My life is here."
"In this room?"
The Giver shook his head. He put his hands to his own face, to his chest. "No. Here, in my being. Where the memories are."

"They know nothing," The Giver said bitterly...
The Giver flicked his hand as if brushing something aside. "Oh your instructors are well trained. They know their scientific facts. Everyone is well trained for his job.
"It's just that...without the memories it's all meaningless. They gave that burden to me. And to the previous Receiver. And the one before him."
"And back and back and back," Jonas said, knowing the phrase that always came.
The Giver smiled, though the smile was oddly harsh. "That's right. And next it will be you. A great honor."
"Yes, sir. They told me at the Ceremony. The very highest honor."

They have never known pain, he thought. The realization made him feel desperately lonely, and he rubbed his throbbing leg. He eventually slept. Again and again he dreamed of the anguish and the isolation on the forsaken hill.

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"But why can't everyone have the memories? I think it would seem a little easier if the memories were shared. You and I wouldn't have to bear so much by ourselves, if everybody took a part."
The Giver sighed. "You're right," he said. "But then everyone would be burdened and pained. They don't want that. And that's the real reason The Receiver is so vital to them, and so honored. They selected me--and you--to life that burden from themselves."
"When did they decide that?" Jonas asked angrily. "It wasn't fair. Let's change it!"
...
"The decision was made long before my time or yours," The Giver said, "and before the previous Receiver, and--" He waited.
"Back and back and back." Jonas repeated the familiar phrase. Sometimes it had seemed humorous to him. Sometimes it had seemed meaningful and important.
Now it was ominous. It meant, he knew, that nothing could be changed.

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Jonas nodded. "I liked the feeling of love," he confessed..."I wish we still had that," he whispered. "Of course," he added quickly, "I do understand that it wouldn't work very well. And that it's much better to be organized the way we are now. I can see that it was a dangerous way to live."

"Do you love me?"
There was an awkward silence for a moment. Then Father gave a little chuckle. "Jonas. You, of all people. Precision of language, please!"
"What do you mean?" Jonas asked. Amusement was not at all what he had anticipated.
"Your father means that you used a very generalized word, so meaningless that it's become almost obsolete," his mother explained carefully.
Jonas stared at them. Meaningless? He had never before felt anything as meaningful as the memory.
"And of course our community can't function smoothly if people don't use precise language. You could ask, 'Do you enjoy me?' The answer is 'Yes,'" his mother said.
"Or," his father suggested, "'Do you take pride in my accomplishments?' And the answer is wholeheartedly 'Yes.'"
"Do you understand why it's inappropriate to use a word like 'love'?" Mother asked.
Jonas nodded. "Yes, thank you, I do," he replied slowly.
It was his first lie to his parents.

For the first time, he heard something that he knew to be music. He heard people singing. Behind him, across vast distances of space and time, from the place he had left, he thought he heard music too. But perhaps, it was only an echo."

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I have yet to see The Giver movie starring Brenton Thwaites, Jeff Bridges and Meryl Streep. I look forward to it though, especially with such a rave review from author Lois Lowry (seen above). "The Giver" is now available to own on DVD, though I believe I may rent it through Amazon first. I'll let you know how the movie is when I get around to doing just that.

This is an amazing book that I would highly recommend. In a way, Lowry was ahead of her time considering the large volume of future dystopian novels out now including Hunger Games, Divergent and Uglies. Nonetheless, it carries a similar message. Our society tried to make life better for everyone and somewhere along the way took the life right out of living. It makes you stop and realize how good we really do have it. There are copious amounts of hate and violence, but even among the worst of it there are brilliant rays of hope and love. The good cannot live without the bad and vice versa. The Giver encourages me to stand up for what I believe in and to not take one seemingly insignificant moment for granted. It inspires me to live everyday to the fullest and love with all my heart.

I hope this novel will inspire you too. Read it...you'll be glad you did.